Long time, no blog. I’ve been debating whether to post this one. But here goes: She was due on Christmas Day, but I knew she wouldn’t come until my mind was at peace. I was worried about who would take care of J and D while I was in hospital and made the mistake of asking my mum if she could come. It was a no, of … [Read more...]
Another baby?

‘Do you really, really, with all your heart, really, really want another baby?’ asks Unhusband. For a nanosecond I pause – mainly to draw breath. But Unhusband seizes the opportunity. ‘See, you had to think about it,’ he says. ‘That means you don’t.’ ‘Yes, I do,’ I protest. But Unhusband is already … [Read more...]
Letting go – again

I posted a version of this before. But seeing as it's a new term (and I haven't had a chance to write anything else!) here it is again. Apologies if anyone has read it before..... So, the holidays over. And I’ve realised just how much J has changed. At five and a half, he still doesn’t know about sex, or cancer, or … [Read more...]




